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deep shit [Mar. 7th, 2013|09:53 pm]
kwytzz
its been weeks. i have a feeling he is ignoring me. was still persistent on bugging him then it hits me. why am i doing this? do i deserve someone who has someone else? can i get the same love as to what i am feeling in return? is he thinking of my feelings and still interested? the answer to all this questions is a plain NO. truth hurts, love hurts. i just want to thank him for giving me such attention. i will miss him. i will not get my chance to say that i have feelings for him and it has grown in to something i didnt expect.i dont want to cry anymore. he is happy and i should be happy for him..

i love you sir psycho sexy.
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this is it [Jan. 29th, 2013|05:30 am]
kwytzz
Wala na yung feelings nya.masakit pero wala naman akong magagawa.i cant force myself to someone not really into me.i fall for him kahit na alam ko masasaktan ako.kelangan na magstart magmove on.


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sign [Dec. 29th, 2012|06:13 am]
kwytzz
Siguro tama na nga na hindi nya ako masyadong kinakausap. Ito na siguro yung sign na dapat ko na i-let go ang nararamdaman ko kay koya. In the first place di naman talaga sya magiging akin. May kirot pero wala naman ako magagawa. Anu bang ginagawa ko at hindi pa din ako natutulog hanggang ngaun. Nakakamiss yung convo namin. Dahil magkaibigan lang kami, hindi ko masasabi talaga yung nararamdaman ako..Ang saket..rawr
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fuck [Dec. 29th, 2012|12:03 am]
kwytzz
Nakakaiyak na naman.Maraming beses ko na sinabi sa sarili ko na tama na ang pahirapan ko pa ang puso ko, pero ang tigas ko pa din. Ang tanga! Ilang beses ko na din pinipigilan sarili ko na kausapin sya pero bingi pa din ako.Shuta! Kelangan ko ng tulong. Daming mali, na alam ko ako ung masasaktan sa huli pero nagpapatuloy pa din ako. Sobrang tanga!
Bakit hindi ko ba sya tigilan? Ano bang mapapala ko sa paghihintay? Sinabi nya na kung anong plano nya. Bakit eto pa din ako??? Anung meron kay koya??? Anung problema ko at hindi ko matapos itong nararamdaman kong sakit at inggit. Tangina!
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Dear Boo [Dec. 10th, 2012|10:03 pm]
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M,J..
I know i say i will be the same person youve met a couple of months ago. that i will always be there for you as jolly as i can, as welcoming as i can. but its hard not to fall for someone like you to the point it hurts. you made me see the world in different perspective. you made me smile everyday and even sing the saddest song with a jolly voice. you are my inspiration. i know youve said a lot of things can be said over the internet but i know what i feel. i wish i can say it to you..i thought i will not going to cry over this but fuck! i love you.
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joy division [Dec. 10th, 2012|09:49 pm]
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i really think im an emotional sadist. i know i cant handle the emotional pain and yet i still welcome it with open arms. fuck. i thought i am okay but i am not.im a seer liar and a hypocrite. im a coward. i hate feeling this way, so vulnerable i can break. i made a choice to wait, just be on the side but it hurts as hell.. i cant say my true feelings for the fear that i will be losing something that in the first place was never mine..i fell..i lost...must i continue hurting?
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Right love at the wrong time [Dec. 1st, 2012|02:22 am]
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it hits me.fuck.piercing.fortunately unfortunate.i fall flat.i want.i lose.
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ansabe?? [Nov. 5th, 2012|09:26 pm]
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Bakit ba ako nagkape kanina? Matutulog nalang,dami pang pumapasok sa isip ko.anube?
Sa totoo lang, hindi naman ako mahilig magsulat at mailap din ang mga magagandang salita(blog friendly) sa akin. In short, hindi ko talent to. Pero sa dami ng pumapasok sa isip ko ngaun ay kelangan ko silang ilabas, kung hindi maloloka ako!

Hindi ko masabi sa mga kaibigan ko ung mga nararamdaman ko ngaun. Hindi ako yung tipon nahingi ng atensyon. At madalas kasama sa open forum. Kasi naman hindi ko din alam kung anong nangyayari sakin. Basta ang gusto ko lang ngaun, magwala!Sumigaw, para kahit konti maibsan ung nararamdaman ko na gustong kumawala ngayon. At dahil gabi na at ayoko naman magmukhang tanga na nagwawala kaya eto nagsusulat nalang ako.
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This is an attempt to connect [Oct. 2nd, 2012|12:25 am]
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I have been listening to John Frusciante. I never thought i would get hooked listening to another artist's material as i would with Incubus'. He's so talented and his music is so overwhelming. Thanks to Jake for introducing John's music to my ear. Goodbye Hooray?!?

Hmm, well that is just my introduction! What I want to talk about here is my current obsession with m,j. He's freaking hot!Ive always been late with anything!I don't know what's gotten into me. I'm dreaming of him..I'm waiting..shit,this feels like high school all over again!

So yung nga, with all the problems with work, I'm trying to focus my attention to the most important thing that my work cant give me. I know you can buy happiness but I will not be truly happy if i do that (kapit sa patalim?)

I am anxious for nothing really! I dont know why! I've been daydreaming about Chris Cordner, which i barely know!

Ayun, kaloka!
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booo [Mar. 20th, 2012|06:51 pm]
kwytzz
Bakit ba masyadong malakas pakiramdam ko sa mga bagay bagay????Naiisip ko na agad ung sasabihin ng iba, ung hindi sinsabi ng iba na dapat ko palang gawin.Feeling ko tuloy ang bobo ko na hindi ko na kayang gawin ung mga dapat pala gagawin ko.O dahil may hd lang ako kaya masyadon akong maramdamin,kaaasaarrrr.wititit ko likesarut ang feelingshi na itikla.susot!

nalulungkot tuloy ako at napepekian sa sarili ko.kelangan tumawa kasi un ang hinihingi ng eksena pero paiyak na naman kasi etsapwera.

shutang hd toh!iba na!ayoko!ayoko!ayoko!
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